Losing It

Guys, I am seriously losing it.  My brain just does not function like it used to.  What is this kid doing to me - taking all my smarts?!  I feel like I can't remember things at all.  At work I've caught myself emailing someone twice about the same subject AND forgetting all together to email someone when I thoroughly convinced myself that I had... I am seriously beginning to doubt my mental capabilities - decision making, time management, scheduling, writing in full sentences - the whole shebang.

Today, for example, I drove to work.  (Thank goodness I'm still ok with mindless tasks...for now.)  When I got to work I checked my calendar to get an update on some upcoming events.

Bright and clear on today's date said "Appointment - Dr. Gaiser - 8:30 am".

I sat there, looked at my calendar again, looked at today's date on my computer, contemplated how likely it would be that I would have written the appointment on the wrong day, decided it was pretty unlikely because I wrote these appointments when I was still sane, and realized that I did indeed have an appointment this morning.  (It's really a good thing that I decided to look at my calendar, today, at that moment...)

I could have sworn that my appointment was tomorrow at 8:00 am.  That's when I told my manager it was, that's when I told Brian it was, but it wasn't.  It was definitely this morning.

Fortunately, I work 7 am to 4 pm, so when all of this went down I still had time to do about 30 minutes of work before I had to drive back toward home to hit the doctor's office at the hospital.  What really got me was the fact that I missed my one and only opportunity to sleep in this week.  When I say that I am really bummed that I'm not sleeping in tomorrow that is an extreme understatement.  I mean, I am really bummed.  It was what I was looking forward to the most this work week.

Nevertheless, I made it to my appointment with time to spare.  And, since it was relatively routine, there isn't a ton to report.  I have gained one pound which puts us at 10.5 on the positive side and our little girl's heart was beating wonderfully at 142 bpm.  My tummy measured at 31 cm and at our next appointment our doctor said that she would start checking where the baby is positioned to make sure she is not breached.  We are getting very close, folks!  We head back to the doctor in two weeks.  I've checked and rechecked that appointment...and set a reminder in my outlook. 

With a baby on the way, a sunroom nearly done, decisions to be made, and unknowns to think about, I have got to keep it together.  Somehow I will, right?!  Can any Mommies out there vouch that my sanity will return??

(PS: For the record about losing it, there have been multiple times where I've forgotten that I am actually pregnant.  That is, until I see myself in a mirror and am surprised at the belly I am sporting.  Oh, that's right.  There's a baby in there...  I wonder if my brain cells will recreate once we have our little girl.  I know hers are forming now, but will I get mine back?!  I sure hope so, or we are all in trouble.)